By Jane Nambi
Jennifer Lopez, appearing on the new issue of Cosmopolitan revealed her biggest insecurity and it is none other than her talent.
The 44-year-old mother of five-year old twins, Max and Emme revealed that she only got confident of how she felt after giving birth to her twins.
“The biggest insecurity I had was my singing,” she admits. “Even though I had sold 70 million records, there was this feeling like, I’m not good at this. And while I was married to Marc [Anthony], he helped me get over it. He kept telling me, ‘You’re the only one holding yourself back from reaching your full potential as a singer. You have to let go’ … I was always so insecure and just kind of going along. Then I grew, little by little, and realized, wait a minute, this is not a fluke. I’m not a mistake — I work my ass off. And I know what I’m doing.”
Lopez, who is currently dating back up dancer, Casper smart, according to Forbes earned $45 million between June 2012 and June 2013. Considering the fact that she is back on the judging panel on American Idol, that number could go up next year. “Everybody in there might be more business-minded, but for me, if I’m talking about marketing or promotion or why a piece of clothing is made, it all comes from an emotion,” she notes. “I’m more of an artist, so when I’m able to use that muscle, I feel like I’m in my element.”
She went on to add saying, “I know that being seen as a role model means taking responsibility for all my actions,” she notes. “I am human, and of course, sometimes I make mistakes. But I promise that when I fall, I get back up. When I am wrong, I will learn the lesson and move on to face other challenges. For me, that’s what creating your own life is. Doing your best work while being your best self.”
Talking about her relationship with Casper whose real name is Beau, Lopez said, “For me, it’s about having a great partner to walk this life with,” she explains. “I have my own high standards for what I want in a partner and how I want to be treated. I bring a lot to the table. I’m not talking about material things but what I have to offer as a person — love and loyalty and all the things that make a good relationship.”
The two have been dating for three years. She is 18 years her senior.